Your priorities must be His priorities. As you serve others, God will open doors for you to share your faith. You may need to feed peoples stomaches before feeding their souls. The call to follow Jesus is a call to serve, not to be served. Life is more interesting, fulfilling, and rewarding for those who aim to help and benefit others.

‎YOU DON'T SEE THE FACE OF GOD BECAUSE YOU CAN'T PEEL YOURSELF AWAY FROM FACEBOOK AND TUMBLR. YOU DON'T HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD BECAUSE YOU DEFILE YOUR EARS WITH MUSIC THAT DOESN'T GLORIFY CHRIST. YOU DON'T ENJOY THE PLEASURES OF GOD BECAUSE YOU ARE FEASTING ON MOVIES AND TELEVISION THAT DON'T EDIFY YOUR SPIRIT.

YOU SAY HIS LOVE IS BETTER THAN LIFE, AND YET YOU LIVE LIKE LIFE IS BETTER THAN HIS LOVE.

i've got this longing in my heart to know the Lord - to be one with Him and to be so in tune to His callings and the gentle stirring of His voice. i want to know Him so deeply that my entire being will be consumed by Him, and entirely Him. how could i ever turn back now that i've tasted and seen that He is good? how could i ever turn back now that i know He has something even greater for me, if only i would just continue reaching out towards Him? how could i ever turn back from the One that saved me from the depths of hell, from the One that gave His life for me? i could never turn back.

Father, You alone know the cry of my heart - You alone know the longings and the desires of my heart. You know that i want to love You and know You so much more, just as lovers do. Jesus, You're my beloved and i know that i am Yours. take me deeper into this relationship, Lord, take me so much further until i'm totally enamoured by You, until i'm lost in Your love. until You're enough for me, until even the best things in life pales in comparison to You. take me deeper, Lord, and more.

and even as i'm writing this, i can feel You saying, "I will."

You called my name, reached out Your hand,
Restored my life, and I was redeemed, the moment You entered my life,
Amazing grace, Christ gave that day -
My life was changed, went from my shoulders, fell the weight of my sin.

So it's with everything I am, I reach out for Your hand,
The hope that changed a second chance I've gained,
On You I throw my life, casting all my fears aside,
How could greater love than this, ever possibly exist?

Consume my thoughts, as I rest in You,
I'm now in love, with a Saviour,
Bearing the marks of His love.

So I wait upon You now, with my hands released to You,
Where a little faiths enough, to see mountains lift and move,
Yeah and I wait upon You now, dedicated to Your will,
To this love that will remain -
A LOVE THAT NEVER FAILS.

i'm in KL at the moment. wow everything here is so... fast. hahaha. gosh. another thing i realised is that while in kuching, if you don't know how to speak hokkien its still mildly acceptable; but in KL, if you don't know how to speak cantonese, you will be tied up to a pole and burnt on a stake -___-

and the only canto i know is LEI YAU MOU GAO CHOR AH which i don't really know what it means LOL but i always hear my relatives say that especially when they are arguing i think. i think it means are you kidding. hahah its so funny to see people arguing in cantonese.

hmmm yesterday i walked past a group of indians and they were speaking chinese to their chinese friend T_______T *hangs head in shame*

hahaha today i went out for lunch with my family and my mom was arguing with my dad when he said, "you're so bad to me la!" and my mom replied, "i'm bad to you to preserve my sanity." hahaha. then my mom started telling stories about my dad way back when he was younger and always got into trouble and my dad was (weakly) protesting in the background, 'thats a lie! your mom is trying to badmouth me! she's exaggerating the entire story!!' hahaha and my mom had this evil smile on her face... truly my mom LOL :')

God once again saved me from the rain! :')

today i was on the way to school with tiong and the dad dropped us outside so we had to walk in when suddenly it started drizzling and i was like, oh no don't tell me its gonna rain! cause it did look like it was gonna rain real heavy and there was still a super long way into the school compound :'( so i prayed all the way and it didn't start raining heavily until i was safely in the school compound, thank you Lord. haha You don't want Your sheep to get wet, do You? :') i'm so thankful.

not only that but today we had some stupid science exam thing and i was studying for it yesterday afternoon, and mostly all the random little things i studied (cause i didn't know what to study for... how on earth do you study science) came out :') wow thanks God for guiding me in my studies.

its funny how i used to take a lot of things for granted, but nowadays i see every little thing around me and i realise that its the little things God blesses us with :') even just a little breeze on a swelteringly hot day is God's doing, a little reminder to tell us that He's there.

the fact that He lead me to study the things i needed to study, and that He stopped the rain from soaking me shows me that He's always there with me even when i don't realise it and that He's the ultimate Lord of the universe... Jesus - even the mention of His name can calm the storm.

Exodus 3:5
“Do not come any closer,” God said. “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground.”

Joshua 5:15
The commander of the LORD’s army replied, “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy.” And Joshua did so.

Acts 7:33
“Then the Lord said to him, ‘Take off your sandals; the place where you are standing is holy ground."

Should we not strip away our inhibitions when we come before Him?
Consecrate ourselves and come before Him in reverence.

hmmm today it was really cold and raining really really heavily. i was on the way back to school in tiong's car and it was raining really badly and i was like thinking, nooo i have to get wet in the rain (because i walk into my house) so while i was in his car i was praying to myself, God pleaseeee let the rain not be so heavy. don't let me get caught in the heavy downpour, at least make the rain slow down a little please God :( just a little please, thank you Jesus! and although it was like 1 more minute to my house and how on earth can the rain start lightening up before i reach my house? but the ways of God are totally amazing because the rain immediately started lightening up and i didn't get soaked.. :) God of miracles.

although i do wish i had a little bit more faith and pray for the rain to stop entirely instead of just asking Him to lighten the rain! funny how i actually thought it was pretty impossible for the rain to lighten up before i reached my house, but just as the Lord answered moses when moses thought it was impossible for Him to send meat/food to the israelites, i'm pretty sure He was saying to me as well, "Is the LORD's arm too short? You will now see whether or not what I say will come true for you." (numbers 11:23)

Meredith Andrews - The River

everyone is broken and in need of a savior, so He came and was broken for the marker, for the shamed - still our eyes are blinded by the culture, by the lies - we cant see that were filthy, we're fallen and so dry.

but He invites us - can you hear Him say? - He invites us, hear Him call your name..

welcome to the river, come drink, come away, come find your very life
welcome to the river of God where your brokeness is washed away.

everywhere is the sorrow and the pain of empty living; you can see it, look in their eyes -all the hopelessness of the world. but look closer, He is right there in the midst of every fear.

living water is the offer, restoration is the call, and He invites us - can you hear Him say? - He invites us, hear Him call your name..

find your healing, find your freedom, in the river of God.

a song i really like by meredith andrews. i'm thankful that we can always come to the river of Living Waters, the river of God, where we are cleansed and washed away of all our transgressions and iniquities, the river of restoration to our soul.. :) you can listen to the song here cause i can't find it on youtube. yeap yeap

I desire to be abundant in good works with faith, labor with love and have patience of hope in Jesus. Yet I question if I truly desire to love God? I mean what’s in it for me. But, I’m coming to realize that there is nothing in it for me but eternal life.

I fall short plenty of times and I get frustrated with myself. I get frustrated about not living up to his word and truth but I think I have it all wrong. I’m trying to live a perfect life but I can’t. I’m a sinner and will be until the day I die. My sins will always exceed my good works. This personal walk will always be in progress and growing. I will never reach faithfulness, mercy, love and etc completely in this life. I’m coming to realize I need to slowwww dowwwn take deep breaths and rely on the mighty loving God- he doesn’t need us you know? We need him.

I want to be a woman who lives totally abandoned to the first commandment. To love my Lord, my God, with all my heart. I don’t want the reputation that I love God, I don’t want to write songs about loving God, I don’t want to talk about loving God. I want to actually love God. When I close my eyes, I want my heart to move. When I close my eyes and I look at Him, I want to feel alive on the inside. I want to look at Him with a fire in my heart and it’s real.

/ misty edwards

this week was a good week.. but then again, every week is a good week, cause we serve a good God huh :)

its funny how i brought my bible to school this week and i was worried cause i thought everyone would be like, why on earth did hannah bring her bible to school! is she trying to be holy holy or something!, but i had a feeling it would help some people and i was right. no one commented much and i was able to share certain verses with a friend who really needed it, so God really does look out for His sheep haha :) like what uncle mervyn said, once you step out in obedience, you start to see things happening. and indeed, this week has been so real to me, in spiritual terms - things i never thought would happen actually started happening.. its crazy stuff when you obey God.

you know, i'm amazed daily that God has a plan and purpose for each one of us here on this planet, and that we are not simply in this world by accident. i mean, each of our purposes on earth is to glorify God's name, but its totally cool that he has a special CALLING for each of our lives. its pretty spectacular.

"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength." (isaiah 40:30)

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." (matthew 11:28)

I am friends with my friends not because of what they can do for me but because of who they are. It is the same with God, we worship Him not only for the great things He does, but because of who He IS. Afterall, He is the Great I Am and not the Great I Did. :)

i'm so excited for the week ahead because i know God is gonna do something in our lives, and He's gonna speak to me through His word, His circumstances, His people, all according to His will :)

i will seek Him with all my heart and i will find Him (deuteronomy 4:29), trust in His good and perfect will (jeremiah 29:11), acknowledge Him in all my ways (proverbs 3:5-6), allow Him to prune me and lead me in the way of the everlasting (psalms 139:23) and the peace of God will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus (phillipians 4:7)

the Lord's arm is never too short. He's never smaller than your problems. And you will never be too small for Him. :)

with the God that has been so faithfully answering my prayers, how could i ever doubt His promises for me? with the faith of a mustard seed, i am going to move mountains.

i'm slowly learning what love really is through the Father. forget all that love you see on the television, in movies, read about in romance novels, in magazines... True love is the Father, the Lord God Almighty who sent his son Jesus Christ to die for my sins :) And although I might not know it, but He is always molding me and shaping me into His likeness, that I may be used for His glory, to bring praise and to glorify His name. Its an amazing feeling to know that you are loved unconditionally by the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. and though I may go through the fire, I will not be burned for I am precious and honoured in His sight and He loves me! (isaiah 43)

He is never, ever, ever too far away.

this week has kinda been so bad, because of a lot (and i mean a lot) of temptations. temptations! temptations in the sense that i used to have an extremely horribly terribly bad habit of judging other people and gossiping about them and in the book of james chapter 4:11-12, it says, "Brothers, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you — who are you to judge your neighbor?" and sometimes its so easy to fall back into the bad habit if i don't keep a tight reign on my tongue.

so yea, who are you to judge your neighbour huh? your friend? your school mate? someone you don't even know? or gossip about them when you don't know the true facts? only God has the power and authority to judge and give judgment. do we sit on the judgment throne? i don't think so, nuh-uh, no no no

back to my week, i realiseee that though i don't judge them like i used to do, there are still a lot of parts in my life that need cleansing and purification with the holy fire! the cleansing power of the Holy Spirit was symbolized by fire in isaiah 6:6-7, "Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."

although im not entirely pure cause i can never be, i'm glad that no temptation that comes against me will ever be too great to handle cause, "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." (1 corinthians 10:13) amennn.

oooh, one thing i realised this week is that i keep asking the Holy Spirit for guidance, but what i didn't realise was that He is already guiding me! and i always wonder if the Lord is speaking to me, but He is always, always speaking to me! He speaks to me when i am about to do something sinful like talking bad about someone behind their backs, a gentle prodding will come to my inner-spirit saying, "Is this something you should be doing? Will this bring glory to God?" and once I realised that, it made facing temptation a lot easier, knowing that He is with me, guiding me, and always 'providing a way out' so that i can 'stand up under it'.

although i fail and sin every single day, His grace is always sufficient :)

yes indeed, the Lord has been abundant in His blessings this week!

2 Timothy 2:16, "Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly."

the truth is, things are hard because they are good, because God works all things for the good of those who love Him, because He is good and we serve Him. we are all learning - this is growth for all of us.

it comes down to surrender, to leaving all of it, both sides of it, at the feet of Jesus, who has already won, who has already conquered, who has already defeated sin and death. it comes to trusting Him.

it comes to knowing we cannot be taken over by the things that would take us over, but that we must always fix our eyes upon Him who has brought us here that we would learn to do so. it comes to trusting Him.

we know who He is in all of this, we know that He is enough, He is love, He is good. it comes through desperation and inability and learning that He was speaking to us when He said, “Apart from Me you can do nothing”. it comes to knowing who He is.

it comes to trust. He is love. He is enough.

He is always enough.

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for sacrificing your life at Calvary to save me of the countless number of sins I have committed throughout my years on this earth, I ask you forgiveness of them all.

I thank You so dearly for being in my life even at times I may have thought You weren't. I look back, Father, into the words that I read as a child and see all the prayers You answered for me and the things You have done in my life and it brings tears to my eyes, Lord, to think of how much You love me. Oh I feel so undeserving, but yet You still speak to me, You still hold me and comfort me.

Fear is not of God, it is of the enemy. However, what I choose to do with it is my choice. I can allow satan to oppress my spirit and take me into the depths of despair, or I can use it as a catalyst for change for the better. If I look at fear for what it is and pick up the weapons of warfare that You, God, have given me, there is no way that the enemy can stand against the onslaught of Your amazing power and might.

If You were here in the flesh with me, I know that my walk would be a smoother one to endure, for one of our fleshly characteristics is finding it hard to believe in something that cannot be seen and walking in Faith at times is a very difficult task for all of us. When Satan steps in and tempts our faith, it is difficult to know which is the right path to take.. Without Your guidance and unconditional love, all would be lost in my life. There are no words to express my gratitude to You and my love for You, no matter how hard I try.

I pray that each day I continue to walk in Your path, that You would continue to guide me and grant me wisdom and understanding. I pray that You would grant me the discernment to differentiate between evil works of the Devil and what is from You, Lord. Lead me from willful sins and guard me from temptation so that I may bring glory to Your name.

Father, I know that You know my heart and that You know each and every single thought I have and everything that I am going to say, even before I do say it. Every where I go, Your Spirit is with me and You will never leave me nor forsake me. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book even before they came to be.

Search me, Lord, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. I pray that you will see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way of the Everlasting.

Your daughter,

Hannah.