The week in words; A food journal 30/05 - 02/06

How many molecules in a bag of guacamole? Avocado's constant!

Ugh I really love avocados. The first time I tried them, I expected them to be sweet so I was totally thrown off by the potato-ish flavour (Perceptions, perceptions!). But after getting used to them, I now love them! The creamy potato taste :-D ON A CRACKER WITH A SLICE OF CHEDDAR CHEESE. Just a post dedicated to the best fruit for the month of May. Fact, avocados are also known as alligator pears.

1. Avocados contain more potassium than bananas (up to three times more!).

2. Avocados aid in the absorption of other nutrients in your body.

3. Avocados high content of Vitamins C and E, carotenoids, selenium, zinc, phytosterols and omega-3 fatty acids helps guard against inflammation.

*cuddles an avocado*

001. I dropped my watch in school on Monday. That is to say, it fell off my wrist without me noticing it, so I had no idea when or where it dropped to. I was quite sad because I really liked that watch and I got it when I was 15, no sentimental value really, but I liked the way it looked! So I went home sadly, thinking that I would never see my wristwatch again. It was raining heavily that day and if I had dropped it on the floor/road in school, if it weren't stepped on or run over by cars, it would definitely have been dead. I didn't bother thinking about my watch (My way of dealing with loss.... Remove thoughts of it along with all said emotions from my mind and focus on other things! Also known as denial. Also, I had a History exam the next day.) but when I went to school the next day, someone came up to me, held out my watch and asked if it was mine. I would have hugged the guy! (But I didn't really know him and that would have been awkward.) :-) He found it on the floor and someone must have told him that it was mine. Yay! Thank You, Jesus!

002. Exams are over. How do I feel? Relieved to say the least :-) I'm happy. Now I've got 2 weeks of holidays to spend! The moment I got home from school, I dropped on my bed and slept for 4 hours. It rained and rained and the winds blew and blew but I didn't hear a thing. What shall I do for 2 weeks? People keep asking me what I want to do after SPM. How do I answer that? I want to do a lot of things. I want  to go to Croatia, I want to ride a camel in Egypt, I want to end poverty. The question is not what I want to do after SPM, the question is what can I do after the SPM examinations for further education and what course I'm interested in taking.  Tsk, I'm still young. I don't agree on leaving the course of the future in the hands of 17-year-olds! Wait, that just sounds like the denial talking again. I'm just lazy to look around and find out what my options are.

003. I ate frogs for the first time last night, at my grandmother's birthday dinner. I really like it! The texture is a lot smoother than chicken but tougher than fish, and it has a bit of a crabmeat-ish thing going on there. I think it's better than chicken. But everyone I've told it to made a face at me and said I was gross for eating frogs (along with the declaration that they would never eat frog meat). If you think about it, we eat cows, pigs, chickens, ducks, fishes, eels, sheep, goats... What makes eating those kinds of animals ethical, and frogs not? See, it's all in the mind and conditioned perceptions. We need to step out of our mindsets and... Eat some frogs!

14/05 - Today, I woke up and got ready for school. It hasn't been raining and the sun has been shining really nicely the past few days, but Jesus told me to bring my jacket to school. So I was like, "Okay," but being the absent-minded person that I am, I didn't pay much attention to it and forgot, and went to school without bringing my jacket. Guess what? School was freezing and I had to write my Bahasa papers with cold fingers. Writing essays with numb fingers - not fun. Not fun at all. Lesson of the experience: When God tells you to bring your jacket, you do it.

15/05 - Seems like my only school is the only one that's smart enough to put History, Maths, and Chemistry papers in one day. I got steam-rolled by the Chemistry paper and when they asked what I would put on an alkaline jellyfish sting to relieve the pain, and to give reasons to support my answer, I ended up writing  about vinegar and one of the reasons was because you could buy it in stores. A friend wrote, "Lemons, because it is found in abundance in nature." Hahaha.

When I'm not studying, I'm drooling over pictures of the interiors of pretty apartments & loft rooms. Like, who needs to stalk celebrities when you have buildings and beds...

What's a nicer word for "babblings"?

Line are great. I love lines. Triangles are my favourite geometric shape. Don't even get me started on angles! ANGLES. ANGLEZZZ!!!! Love love love straight lines. I know I got some angles wrong, these don't look very 3D, but these are just doodles from while I take a break from memorising wordy passages, sorting out mathematical equations, ignoring my Physics textbook, and contemplating the meaning of life. Mostly I think about cats, in case anyone was wondering. And the occasional platypus. Why did God create the platypus? WHY? Amusement, a sudden creative outburst, mischievousness while thinking, "These humans are never gonna figure out what this is when it waddles out from that river!" or? I imagine God laughing in the Heavens while slapping a coupla angels on the back when that baffled team of European naturalists found it, thinking it was some kind of conspiracy. Platypuses are also venomous. So don't touch it. I wonder how platypus meat tastes like?

Jesus is great. TOTALLY great. I mean, He knows you, you know? Like, better than you even think you know yourself. Seriously. Has anyone really felt like wow, I really know myself!, and suddenly something comes your way and you find yourself questioning who you are and your existence and the meaning of everything and you feel like that plate of unwanted jelly nobody wants to eat anymore sitting alone on top of the dining table. (Or maybe its just the puberty speaking. When does puberty end? Kidding. It ends when you're 34, right?) Anyway, Jesus can totally sort you out. He's there and He loves you. Just a reminder, maybe someone forgot. I know I nearly did. It's a crazy thing to forget but even being a human is a crazy thing. He sent me a reminder in the form of a willing servant. Oh, and, when Jesus tells you to go do something, just do it. It might be ridiculous. But someone decided against all rational thinking to tell me something ridiculous from God, and it saved my life (Me being a dramatic teenage girl here). No, but really, yes. God knows, and He loves you, even when you feel like that blobby piece of unwanted gelatin.

Life is not a straight line leading from one blessing to the next and then finally to heaven. Life is a winding and troubled road. Switchback after switchback. And the point of biblical stories like Joseph and Job and Esther and Ruth is to help us feel in our bones (not just know in our heads) that God is for us in all these strange turns. God is not just showing up after the trouble and cleaning it up. He is plotting the course and managing the troubles with far-reaching purposes for our good and for the glory of Jesus Christ. — John Piper

"I'm just gonna prowl around you, make you regret wearing shorts out for dinner by tickling your legs with my fur that may or may not have been washed recently, or perhaps for a few months, mewl at you until you give me something decent to chew on and when you do, I'll be ungrateful and come back caterwauling till you give me MOAR because I think I have an adorable face so I can get whatever I want. Oh, and also, I have sharp teeth and sharp claws and I'm not afraid to use them! So wheres my food, woman?"

"Hi! We are your study companions. We sit on your table day by day, reminding you of the impending doom that is coming that is your first semester exams. We are not subtle at all, no! We love to shove it in your face that you have about 10923904828839 things to study in 2 weeks! Oh but don't look at us like that..... We're just helping you! (to be stressed out)."

"Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth"

This past week has seen me;

001. Lounging around the house all sloth-like, skilfully putting off my school work till I finally can't help it and crank out some answers - until I googled the questions given, and found the exact answers online ;-) Schoolwork has been alright so far, but I'm afraid I'm not putting too much effort into it which I can 100% guarantee feelings of regret later when I'm nearing the first sems! First sems are in about a month, shock horror. Studying is rather enjoyable, it's the motivation that's lacking! Someone please remind me of my looming future as a wood-cutter in Alaska or cat food quality controller if I do not get studying now.

002. Doing a bit of shopping during the weekends (and by shopping I mean walking around aimlessly staring at clothes I would never wear/can't afford/wonder who in their right minds would actually wear, and lamenting at the cost of books in the bookstore). But I bought stickers, and! I also finally bought a pair of black bermuda shorts which I've been thinking about for a while now, for the main reason that I'm tired of shorts. Not that I've decided to completely bury my shorts and never wear them but one gets rather tired of stares and cat calls (not that I've got a gorgeous face, but really, any female in shorts and with relatively decent legs are bound to get those) from certain kinds of groups and I guess I'm realising that its not really worth it for people to keep looking. It's one thing to complain about 'those kinds of people' harassing you by cat-calling and whistles and leery stares, but it's another thing to look at what you're wearing and understand that maybe you're not helping either. Just my point of view, though... Maybe having my grandmother staying over is turning me all conservative, ha!

Chicken/crocodile stickers that I bought. Too cute!

003. Browsing through tumblr looking at gorgeous pictures of buildings and their interiors. How magical and dreamy can these places and rooms get?

"Me, I am not such an excellent host - I am one who forgives but needs it the most. I found the liar, the killer of hearts, and I ran away with a new way to start. I journeyed a road where a bright man appeared, He looked into me, and my eyes filled with tears. My breath fast and short and my heart burning deep, He gave me new eyes and a new way to see.

I still defiled His great love ways, I felt such a famine when I ran away. I missed the presence, the voice like a song; I was nasty and dirty, I knew I was wrong - But He ran to me like a dream like a father, this love is not earthly this love must be other. He carried me home and threw me a party, a party so loud like the greatest love story." - Charlie Hall, Hookers and Robbers