Hello everybody, I've changed my blog address to Hiscallings.blogspot.com, it would be great if those of you who've linked me could change the link :) I decided that link because, God has many voices and He calls out from every where that you go. He is Wisdom, calling out in the open and in the public square, at the top of the wall and at the city gate. He is the small voice, calling out in the wind, caught only by those who are still enough to listen. He is the Word, blatant and printed right before our very eyes, yet revealed only to those who search for it as for silver, as for gold. He is indeed a speaking God. In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God - In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. He is calling everywhere, in the hurt and pain, joy and laughter, sorrow and grief, yet it seems so difficult for us sometimes to hear Him.. but, "My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me." - John 10:27. I am simply following after His callings.

As time goes by, people never fail to remind me... How much they fail. And the fact is, people will always fail me and fall short - thats what happened to Adam even in the beginning, he fell. No matter how much trust you put in a person, there's no guarantee that that person will never fail you. Humans aren't perfect and they will fail, disappoint, hurt and be hurt. But the imperfections of human nature only serve as a reminder of the perfections of a loving and merciful God. Where man fail, God prevails. Where man's weaknesses overwhelms, God's strength manifests. Where man's imperfections show as a dirty black stain on a white sheet, God's grace allows a new white sheet, every single time.

To simply stop trusting in others because they might fail you and hurt and disappoint you doesn't make sense - Just as God forgives & accepts us readily every time we fail Him and provides us a clean start each time, we need to forgive and accept others who fail us, allowing them a 2nd chance... And a 3rd. And a 4th. And a 5th. And as many as it takes. God's grace never gives up on a person, neither should I who is called to reflect His likeness - I'm still learning.

You're beautiful, you're beautiful in His eyes

Praying that you have the heart to fight
'Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, you're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this

You're beautiful, you're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His

You're beautiful

be the Lord of my life
of my heart
of my soul
my mind
my hands
my mouth
my eyes
my ears
my feet
this beating heart encased by the
ribcage you formed
this blood flowing through the
veins that you shaped
the falling of my knees
the movement of my being

this life that i live
has no meaning
unless You become my source
my spring
my well
my bread
my water
my heart
my life
my being
living in You and You in me
yet i live in the world
grasping at all the things i have ever known
clinging unto all the things that make me secure
yet it has no meaning
if it did not come from You
for all good things come from Your hand
the heavens cannot contain You

i'm tired of being who i am
because who i am is not who You are
and who You are is simply all i am not

Lord
i will not
i will not sacrifice to the Lord
the Lord my God
i will not sacrifice to the Lord my God
sacrifices
that costs me nothing
for the sacrifices of the Lord
are a broken and contrite heart

be the remedy for my soul
understand me, for i cannot understand myself

no

i will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing

It's a beautiful day in Heaven when a sinner repents - indeed, more joy over one single repentant sinner than over ninety-nine righteous people who do not need to repent!

Here we are, buried in death with Christ and risen with Him in triumphant victory - Let us declare it, strong and sure - I am dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus; Hallelujah, to Him be the glory and the power for ever and ever, Amen!

Debra asked me to write about my life so here it is! On Saturday I went out to Spring for a while in the afternoon to buy Darien a book for his birthday, then I went to my grandparents' house and ate their vegetables. Then I went home and got ready for church and I had a lovely time in the presence of God with lovely people. On Sunday, I stayed at home the whole day and I'm not gonna write anything about it unless you want to hear about the number of times I used the bathroom or something.. On Monday I went to school and then I went home and took a nap, ate my lunch and did my homework. Then I went to tuition and came home at 9:30pm and went to bed. On Tuesday I came home from school with a fever so I went straight to sleep and woke up at 6pm. I ate a pear, then I had my dinner and went back to sleep at 8pm and woke up the next day at 8am. So on Wednesday I didn't go to school, I stayed at home and studied Bible Knowledge. And suddenly it was 9:30pm and I officially hadn't taken a bath for 27 hours, wonderful! I went to bed and woke up at 5:35am on a Thursday morning. Went to school, ordered fried chicken rice from the grumpy man in the canteen who hates the guts of every student in the school and sat for my Bible Knowledge paper which was alright. But I forgot a few important stuffs. That's alright though, now I'm back home and sitting here writing about my life, WHICH I'VE JUST REALISED IS VERY SAD. There you go, Debra, all about my life.. I don't think anyone is still reading this post right now. Hahaha. And this is why I don't write about my daily life that much (or at all, actually.)

We, human beings, are such idiots. We get ourselves into situations that are less than what we desire, then we ask the all-famous question - Why, God? Why?! And our ever long-suffering God has to stick His hand in and somehow work out our troubles for us, all leading to our good. I wonder, if sometimes we seem to take His divine patience and mercy for granted. We are too quick ask Him why and how and why and how and WHY, GOD, OH WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME, but we are too gosh darned DIM to realise that OH, CHILD, OH YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF BUT ITS OKAY I STILL LOVE YOU AND I AM WORKING ALL THINGS OUT! Our Heavenly Father is so much more real than we realise or even know! Nothing is 'hard' for God. One time Jesus told Peter to go catch a fish and then open its mouth to find a coin that would pay their taxes. Now, think about that for just a second... Dang. And somehow, we're asking God why He's causing bad stuff to happen to us? HE'S THE ONE THAT SAVES US.

He cares for you. He cares. Let that sink in - the God of the universe cares for you. For you. What did we do to deserve Him? Absolutely nothing. What do we have to do to deserve Him? Absolutely nothing. Covered by His blood, washed over by His grace, encouraged by His mercy - He's God and He doesn't require
anything - But He chose to care for you.

You have searched me, Lord, and You know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; You perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down; You are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue You, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before, and You lay your hand upon me.

"You are familiar with all my ways."

Nothing we do surprises Him - even when we fail. But He still goes before us and with us and after us, His hand is with us. What a good God we serve.

He's Making You His Home

Do you remember the last time your feelings got hurt or your heart was broken? Maybe someone said something stupid that touched on that one thing you’re really sensitive about or maybe good stuff always happens to that one friend of yours; and even though you hate it, the thing you’re really feeling is jealousy. I hate having that heart-broken, insecure feeling. I know because I’ve felt it so many times. When you’re down like that, you feel like everything would be okay if only that person would just stop saying that thing to you, or if only some of the cool stuff that happens to your friends would actually happen to you. It’s really easy to feel like your problem is circumstantial - in other words, if these situations change or if those people would change, you’d be just fine. Here’s the deal: You’d still be a wreck. The problem is not those other people. The problem is inside. The problem is that you believe lies about yourself that make you insecure. What if you really believed the truth of who Jesus says you are? What if you really believed that Jesus is madly in love with you and came on a rescue mission just for you? One time Jesus said, “Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay His head.” Animals work hard to make their own homes. Jesus was God. He could have made an amazing house for Himself! What if the reason Jesus was homeless here was that the only home He cared about building for Himself was right down inside your precious heart? What would happen if you dared to believe that?

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Today's one of those days where nothing seems to go right, and everyone else just magically manages to frustrate & irritate me! Days like this where the tiniest problems magnify and I want to break everyone that comes in my way into half (...okay, maybe not exactly that bloodthirsty), it would be so easy for me to crawl under my covers and drown my misery in john mayer & adele on repeat until I fall asleep. But that doesn't really make sense. If I am pissed off at the world, do I try to make things better by dwelving into the things of the world? Of course its a heck load easier doing that rather than spending time with the Word, searching your heart to find the root of your problem, analysing your motives and surrendering it to God. Man, thats a lot of hard work and you might just find out some unpleasant things about your heart. But its like... Cleaning your room. Once you know your room is messy, you can do things the easy way and try to stuff all the nonsense under your bed, in your wardrobe, behind the piano, inside the hairdryer (basically, every available crevice in your room)... OR you could uproot all the dirty sneaky stuff thats hiding everywhere and really start doing a proper cleaning, although it might get messier in the beginning & involves much sweat and pain and the occasional dead rat.

The end result is pretty satisfactory though, if you get what I mean. I think its time for me to clean my room with a little God detergent and Holy Spirit scrub.

Countin' it all joy, facing trial and tribulation while temptation advertises sensation of sin
I take a minute to forget the situation I'm in, cause when I'm praisin' its amazing how things start changin', now
I made a vow to agree with His word and let my soul fly free as a bird
Ain't no matter how it seems in this world, I'm still seeking the Lord

4) Remember whose property you’re touching. You do not own the person you’re dating. That person belongs to God. Imagine there’s a sign on everyone you date that reads: PROPERTY OF JESUS. (Source)

You know what, why not we look at everyone and imagine there's a sign on each person that reads: PROPERTY OF JESUS. It might just change the way we look at people. Forever.