suddenly i'm reminded of job in the bible, who was afflicted with all sorts of diseases and open sores and had everything that was his taken away from him. but he still didn't curse God out, he didn't question the ultimate ways of God, and He didn't go around wailing that God was being unfair and all that... hmmm, no he didn't. and in the end, because of His trust in God, he was blessed multiple times over, with even more than he had in the beginning. hmm, lesson to be learnt here? sighhhh

“The fire must be kept burning on the altar continuously; it must not go out.” (Leviticus 6:13)

“If your heart takes more pleasure in reading novels, or watching TV, or going to the movies, or talking to friends, rather than just sitting alone with God and embracing him, sharing his cares and his burdens, weeping and rejoicing with him, then how are you going to handle forever and ever in his presence? You’d be bored to tears in heaven, if you’re not ecstatic about God now!”