End of year tag :)

So I did this tag at the end of 2008 last year, time to do it again :)

In 2009...

Did you do something you would never do?
I don't think so.. i got used to farting in front of people :P lol

Did you keep any New Year's Resolutions?
My last years resolutions were to complain less, get closer to God more, to be more patient, love my enemies and to practise my piano more. Of all those, the one that i failed the MOST at was.. to practise the piano more. FAILLL.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

Did anyone close to you die?
No.

Did you visit any countries?
No.

What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Patience.

Will any date from 2009 stay etched in your memory forever?
I'm not an alien, i'm a spaceship.

What was your biggest achievement of 2009?
Don't think I had any big achievement, my life is a failure

What was your biggest failure?
Getting a pass in grade 6 piano exam.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Got fever one or two times.

What was the best thing you bought in '09?
JEAAAAAAAAAAANs

Did your behavior change over the year?
I like to think it did.

Where did you spend most of your money?
Buying gifts for friends -_________-

Are you happier than this time last year?
Yeah, I think so.

What song will remind you of 2009?
No special song.

What do you wish you would have done more of?
Study.

What do you wish you would have done less of?
Play computer.

What did you do for Christmas '09?
Hmmmmm, i stayed at home i think.

Did you fall in love in 2009?
No.

Did you get your heart broken in 2009?
Nope.

Cried over a guy/girl?
No.

Favorite TV programs of '09?
I... sadly do not watch tv.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate. i just hold a.. slight grudge.

What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw?
Can't recall. OMG THIS YEAR IS SERIOUSLY SUCH A FAILURE LA

What was your greatest discovery?
That if I really put my mind to something, I can do it :D

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
I was 14 on the 14th July. And I don't remember what I did.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
... Beating Tiong. why must he be so smart la

How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2009?
Casual.

Friends

Who was the best new person you met?
Dunno.

Who did you wish you did not meet?
Got also.

Who was your best friend?
old man that lives down the street

Who was your enemy?
No enemy I think.

Who do you miss?
No one? haha. i can't think of anyone.

Who will you never forget?
Victor. i don't think i'll even forget that loser hahaha

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
To not kepo into other peoples business, drama is useless :P

What will you always remember about 2009?
School.

Aspirations for 2010...

What do you want to do in '10 that you couldn't in '09?
Exercise my patience.

Any resolutions?
Yeah. I'll think about my resolutions later. But it'll probably be something like this years resolutions.

What different thing will be about 2010 than 2009?
Er.. I'll be 15?

Anything you want to change about yourself for 2010?
Yes.

Do you want to make more friends in 2010?
Why of course.

if i were a month, i’d be December
if i were a day of the week, i’d be Friday
if i were a time of day, i’d be 530am
if i were a planet, i’d be Venus
if i were a sea animal, i’d be a seahorse
if i were a direction, i’d be home
if i were a piece of furniture, i’d be a couch
if i were a historical figure, i’d be Oskar Schindler
if i were a liquid, i’d be mercury
if i were a gemstone, i’d be a ruby
if i were a tree, i’d be a willow
if i were a tool, i’d be a saw
if i were a flower, i’d be a forget-me-not
if i were a kind of weather, summer
if i were a musical instrument, i’d be a harmonica
if i were a color, i’d be shimmery
if i were an emotion, i’d be awe
if i were a fruit, i’d be a kiwi
if i were a sound, i’d be rain pouring down
if i were an element, i would be wind
if i were a car, i’d be really cool
if i were a food, i’d be sushi
if i were a place, i’d be heaven
if i were a material, i’d be cotton
if i were a taste, i’d be tangy
if i were a scent, i’d be floral
if i were an object, i’d be a pencil

D'Encounter youth camp 09 was last week :) it was a great camp. God's presence was there, you could really feel it. And He spoke a lot to me as well, things that really touched my heart. Some things i can't share, its between me and God, and some things that I can share to encourage other people :) I don't wanna come out from that camp and forget all that has been spoken to me like all those other times, this time its for real, i'm keeping it in my heart and living by His word.

Another thing, i have reduced the amount of secular music i listen to. There was this session that the pastor shared with all those that were involved in the worship ministry, about how we should be careful about what we listen to. It was a slideshow about how secular music influences our thinking.

When you listen to certain secular songs backwards, you can actually hear different messages coming out of it. Its called 'backmasking'. You can google it if you want to learn more. Satanic messages, messages that are gonna influence your thinking and the way you live, and what you say or do in life. You might think its all bull, and that subliminal messages in songs can't influence you. But theres another part of your brain, called the subconscious, that will catch on to it and it will, without you knowing it, influence you. And it seriously scared the heck out of me.

Here's an example.
Dinner at Deviant's Palace - Cradle of Filth
When its played normally, you hardly hear anything worth hearing. But when its played backwards, you can hear the Lord's Prayer. They're singing the Lord's Prayer backwards. and for many of you, you guys are gonna be like, so what? its the Lord's prayer right, but just backwards! same thing right? they're praising God! Well, the Lord's Prayer recited backwards is used in the occult (also known at the anti-christ, black magic etc.) - its used to summon SATAN. :S

Another is Led Zeppelin's "Stairway to Heaven". When played backwards, you can hear things that contain Satanic references like, "here's to my sweet Satan" and "I sing because I live with Satan".

Or perhaps, Britney Spear's "Baby, One More Time". Played backwards, you hear "Sleep with me, I'm not too young." Oh and look what a fine role model she's turned out to be!

Another thing - Pokemon's theme song? "Gotta Catch em All"? Played backwards you hear, "I love Satan" repeated over and over again. Now I understand why my mom never allowed me to watch Pokemon when I was young..

Things to think about.

"Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know that so it goes on flying anyway."

The white crayon has to be by far the least commonly used crayon in the color box. Why is it in there? Did the makers of the crayons decide to be politically correct and create every shade under the sun from tickle me pink, to macaroni and cheese, down to razzle dazzle rose? Whatever they were trying to do they ignored one vital piece of information; white is not a color. (read more here)

Take risks: if you win, you will be happy; if you lose, you will be wise.

this morning, i was ironing my shirt for school (wooh, yeah, i actually do know how to iron!)
and suddenly, i burnt my hand.
now i actually understand what the term i read about in books actually means, "a white searing pain"



15 minutes after getting burnt. pinkish-pale.


end of the day. purplish-red!

Those old ladies sure know how to party.

YEAH THIS IS PRETTY MUCH ME IN 60 YEARS

A day in the life of a Trenieken.

todayyy, woke up and went to piano tuition.
i had a dream last night that my piano teacher scolded me because i didn't practise, so i was rather worried for today lol. but she didn't scold me, so no worries. in fact, she has never scolded me for the 6+ years i've been with her o_o
i must be a good student. not. a good student that never practises, more like -.-

in the afternoon, went to church.
my church organised this rubbish collecting thing in our area, hui sing area. church community project :D
lala, we went around collecting rubbish. it made me realise that malaysian's are a bunch of dirty people lol. i can't believe hui sing is considered one of the cleanest areas in kuching.
altogether, we managed to collect about 50+ bags of rubbish. about a hundred people participated. some went to collect rubbish, while some of the adults stayed in the church to pray.

after that, ate at pizza hut, went to everise bdc, bought jaomi's present, mom bought this red nail polish which i don't know whether to love or to hate, blah blah, the end.

♥banana.

You cannot go back in time, even if you wish it with every fiber of your being, your heart and soul, even if you think about it every day. Trust me.

“Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. So when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, "Hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "Oh, you mean purple!", and she goes off on her purple thing, and I'm like, "No - I want magenta!". -John Mayer

♥banana.

It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice.

is this like the best gif you have ever seen or what.

anyway, last night i had a dream.
guarantee worst dream ever ok -.-
i dreamt that.. PN NG WAS CHASING ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T PIN UP MY HAIR
nightmare!

♥banana.

Questions.. Because sometimes, asking the right questions is the answer.

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
22. Why are you, you?
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
25. What are you most grateful for?
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
32. If not now, then when?
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

These words were never easier for me to say, but I guess that I can live without you, but without you I'll be miserable at best.

aw. sigh. blah.

somebody made me cry in school today! :(

during art period, othniel made me sit down and then he told me a scary story.
i wanted to run away but then idiot babi people forced me to stay.
babi you othniel...

i seriously cannot stand scary stories okay, i am probably more wimp than (insert ah gua of choice here) when it comes to scary stuff. uggh!
i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate scary things.

so he told me the story and then at the end.. BOO! shouted at me.
IT SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME OKAYYY WHATTT

and then i cried. for about 1 or 2 minutes. after that i was angry a little, but then i started laughing. ugh ugh ugh. i hope that teaches you people a lesson to never scare me!

oh, i forgot to mention, before i started crying, i instinctly slapped othniel after he shouted the boo! at me.
sorry for slapping your face othniel.

scary movies/books/whatever suckkk!
i don't see whats so great about being scared shitless until you can't sleep at night.

♥banana.

update: oh yeah, today, i passed by john paul and i said hi to him, then he was like, "hey babe!", i think, and i laughed. its very funny and so cute, the way he says it :D hahaha.

Should've known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do.

and your world tilted on its axis, the stars performed a ballet,
and you forgot how to breathe for a few minutes.

no one falls in love by choice, it is by chance
& no one falls out of love by chance, it is by choice.

♥banana.

Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect.

181. EVERYONE IS SO IN LOVE WITH BEING IN LOVE, THEY FORGET ABOUT WHO THEY'RE ACTUALLY "FALLING IN LOVE WITH." STOP FORCING YOURSELF TO FALL IN LOVE WITH PEOPLE YOU BARELY KNOW. IF THE RIGHT PERSON COMES ALONG YOU WON'T HAVE TO TRY, EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL INTO PLACE. AND IT'S OK TO BE A LITTLE BIT LONELY FOR NOW, IT'LL ALL BE WORTH IT IN THE END. Got Wisdom?

1.infatuation - a foolish and usually extravagant passion or love or admiration
2.infatuation - temporary love of an adolescent

" Infatuation is instant desire, one set of glands calling to another.

Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.

Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you, to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his presence, even when he is away. Miles do not separate you. You want him near. But near or far, you know he is yours and you can wait.

Infatuation says, “We must get married right away. I can’t risk losing him.”

Love says, “Be patient. He is yours. Plan your future with confidence.”

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are in one another’s company you are hoping it will end in intimacy.

Love is the maturation of friendship. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When he’s away, you wonder if he’s cheating. Sometimes you check.

Love means trust. You are calm, secure, and unthreatened. He feels your trust and it makes him even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you’ll regret later, but love never will.

Love lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before. "

I think its about time that people know the difference
between Love and Infatuation :)

Saves a lot of heartbreak for the world.

We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection.

fact: you, sitting in front of your computer, reading this right now, you are beautiful. work uniform or pajamas, unbrushed hair or perfect curls, all that. you are beautiful.

A banana to cheer me up.

The cyclone derives its powers from a calm center. So does a person.

Take a look at this blog.

I think thats very nice :)



♥banana.

Things do not pass for what they are, but for what they seem. Most things are judged by their jackets.

i just can't understand why some girls can pile on sunscreen, moisturiser, foundation, eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara, concealer, blusher, shimmer, lip liner, lipstick, lip gloss, loose powder, and still manage to move their faces without it cracking into a million pieces.

♥banana.

Spasming cuteness makes the world go round. At least in my world it does.

Check out these super cute handmade teddy bears :D

Sooooooooooo cute!







♥banana.

Don't get your knickers in a knot. Nothing is solved and it just makes you walk funny.

Why do we like or dislike certain people?

Is it true that,
"All the qualities we hate in others are things that we see in ourselves and don't like"
hmm, i don't know.
but as i read somewhere,
It would be quite difficult to admit that we are very similar to the people we think we hate.

I'm so boreddd.
Exams tomorrow.
& I still haven't studied! argh.

♥banana.

Matthew 5:44-45

Matthew 5:44-45

"But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you,
do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who
spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be
sons of your Father in heaven.
He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good,
and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous."

Edit:

This verse made me think quite a lot. And it made me feel guilty.
I know in my new year resolutions, I said that I would love my enemies but I think I'm doing quite badly at that (that means that I failed, big time).
So I promised myself (and God) that I would love a certain person.
And be genuinely nice and kind to that person.

I think certain people from my class know who I'm talking about lo.
But yeah. I'm gonna be nice to everyone now xD Ahah.

(Love thy enemy)

♥banana.

2009 resolutions

1. Do not complain when I am doing something/anything.
2. Praise God in everysinglething.
3. Keep my patience!
4. Love thy enemies ♥
5. Keep my swearing under control D:
6. Practise piano more and study harder.
7. Stop arguing with my mom/sister.

♥banana.