It's the beautiful season of Raya! I went for a bit of Raya visiting yesterday, and it was all really nice. Pretty houses and really, really good food. So after a day of going around, I went back home, did a bit of revision, and went to bed...
... Cue me waking up at 1:30 a.m. and running to the toilet like it was the only hope for my living. My stomach decided to rebel and lose the weight gained from Raya visiting I guess :-( Fair enough! After moments of suffering, I once again went back to bed for some rest.
... Cue me waking up again at 5:00 a.m. with excruciating stomach cramps and groaning my way back to the toilet again, thinking I should just put up a tent in the bathroom and sleep there for convenience' sake. Very well, I took the suffering like a man! A really wimpy man! But I digress.
Of course I commanded the pain to leave, and the viruses and bacteria to die and cast themselves off into the very depths of hell from which they seem to come from. But multiple times, nothing happened, and I was like why, God, why! I don't want to go through this nasty ordeal! I want to be heeeaalleeedddd~~. And suddenly a small lightbulb ding went off in the middle of all the crap (literally! Haha okay I'll stop now) and that small Voice said, Sometimes purging is needed for you to get better. I paused for a second there to think. It seemed like He was talking about more than just my body's rebellion to really delicious curry. So I sat on the thinking chair (Hahahahaha), thinking, thinking - And I think I got it.
Recalling my previous episodes in the toilet, what I was going through now really wasn't so bad. Because previously, all my food poisoning cases had me wanting to commit suicide in the toilet cause it was that bad and I really couldn't take it. And those were the times where I was healed immediately as well. However, this time, it wasn't that bad and I could handle it, I just wanted immediate relief because I wanted to get back to bed and sleep. Besides the 'God won't put you through anything you wont be able to withstand' meaning, there was also the, 'God supplies all your needs, and not all your wants' meaning going on. Along with that, one thing I learnt was that all of us need to go through purging in our life, to get rid of the dross and reveal the silver. Its the discipline of God, refining us, so that we come out cleaner. Like how my body was responding to whatever bad thing I had ingested and was trying to purge my body of it, our spiritual lives also have to go through purging to get rid of worldly habits and all the whatnots we have accumulated in our lives. It might be messy, and most certainly painful... But the holiness we learn from it is worth it.
It was like God was saying, no, I'm not going to take away the pain just right now. You need to see that purging needs to happen every once in a while - But I'm always here, to see that what you go through won't be more than you can handle.
So that was my Raya revelation, and how God can turn a case of food poisoning into a lesson for me. :-)
"... Come out from it and be pure, you who carry the vessels of the Lord." (Isaiah 52:11)
4 comments:
You're the first person I know to have gone through the same situation as I had. Haha
I once was like you, and I was begging for it to end, saying that I can't take it anymore. But something kept telling me that actually I could go on and that I'm being lazy in a sense to go through the process.
Then it hit me. Like you said, purging is needed to get better. Yeah, we depend on God, but we shouldn't depend on God to spoonfeed us.
God works wondrously. Even diarrhea also can teach lesson hahaha
HAHAHAHA Julius!! Amen!! This is so funny, in a serious kind of way. Well that shows the God we serve has this really special sense of humour haha:)
This sounds crazy! hahaha~~
Did they put weed into the curry?
HAHA!! Diarrhoea is always a crazy ride, in the worst of ways:(
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