When people tell me I still have my whole life in front of me, I shouldn't think so hard about my future and God's will for my life, it frustrates me. Yes, I know, I have my whole entire life in front of me. But, guess what? I could die tonight. I could die tomorrow. I could die next week. Next month. Next year. 5 years from now.Life is too short for me to be wasted by walking out of God's will.

What if, I die before the time that people expected me to die, before the time that I myself expected to die, and I am standing before God the Father, and the Book of Life is being read to see all the things I have done for the Glory of His Name in my life?

Could I bear to stand before Him knowing that there could have been so much more that I could have done for Him? Could I stand before Him with the knowledge that I could have sought His will for my life while I was still living, but did not? Could I bear looking at Him in all His glory, knowing that I have wasted precious moments of my life away on this earth?

In this life, the concept of death, to us who are young, seems like an idea so far away. Like a distant cloud on the horizon, but we are hardly aware that death can come at any time. Like a sweeping shadow, it can come and take a life just like that. We see news of deaths every single day, and yet we just cannot come to grasp the reality that We. Could. Die. This very next moment. The very next day. We acknowledge that there is death in this world happening to people all around us, but we don't acknowledge that death could happen to us.

I do not fear death. Death is just a step to finally be with my Father in Heaven. But. I cannot just spend my life away on this earth like it hardly means anything. And I cannot agree with the people that tell me I am still too young to be seeking His will for my life.

If I am not doing His will for my life, then who's will am I doing?

"Jesus didn't die halfway for you, why do you get to live halfway for Him?"

"I have come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly"

Thank You, Jesus, for the extremely unexpected good results in my monthly test! Thank You for the unexpected answered prayer, thank You for the unexpected help given by an unexpected friend in something I have been praying about, thank You for Your encouragement in unexpected ways! Thank You for Your unexpected joy in my heart, thank You for the unexpected hope in the midst of confusion. Thank You for being such an unpredictable, amazing, omnipresent God, that works in unexpected and wonderful ways!

Joy, unspeakable joy; an overflowing well, no tongue can tell - Joy, unspeakable joy; Rises in my soul, never lets me go..

Sometimes I, I just want to close my eyes and act like everyone's alright, when I know they're not. This world needs God, but it's easier to stand and watch; I could say a prayer and just move on like nothing's wrong - But I refuse.
'Cause I don't want to live like I don't care, I don't want to say another empty prayer. Oh, I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else to do what God has called me to do myself. Oh, I could choose not to move but I refuse.. I can hear the least of these crying out so desperately, And I know we are the hands and feet of You, oh God. So, if You say move, it's time for me to follow through and do what I was made to do -
Show them who You are.

'Cause I don't want to live like I don't care, I don't want to say another empty prayer.

I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else to do what God has called me to do myself.

To stand and watch the weary and lost cry out for help, I refuse to turn my back and try and act like all is well.

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I pray that this month will be a month of revelations and dreams, reveal more of Yourself to us, Lord. Open our eyes to see the glimpses of You in our everyday life, in the waking of each beautiful morning, to see your faithfulness just as the sun is faithful to set every evening; and when darkness envelops the sky, we will know You are still there with us. Lead us, heal us, guide us, hold us, shake us, break us, what are we but clay in the Potter's hand? - He knows best.

Seeking God's will in my life. There are certain things I know, and certain things just seem so far off and distant. God, You have the right, and my permission, to rearrange my life to achieve Your purposes.

I don't normally listen to or watch Gospel music videos, but this. This. Now tell me you didn't get chills.